To be honest, I have a crush on someone. Almost, one month :P Well I wanna write bout him here but I just can't. I don't know why..I'm speechless. I am still wondering whether I should tell him how I really feel or should I move in or just be still.. I hope he won't read this!!! I'm afraid, if I take the chance and everything will change and it kinda shatters my heart if my confession will just fuck up our relationship. I don't want this to end and I don't want to say it later ' I missed how we used to be..' I don't want to.
And when his gaze falls upon me, I'm flying. And sometimes I freaked out, in front of him. I just can't control myself. I don't know where I got the strength to wave and it's still vivid when he waved at me first. I can't really explain my feelings because it something that can describe thru words... It is something that can't verbalize.
I always made reasons to meet up with him everyday, or even watch him from distance. Because that's the least I can do. I can't help but envy the people who get to be with him everyday,
But how hard it will turn out to be, I'll face this, all after all, I still like him. :)
Does he worth it.. and am I deserve this? I don't know either.